Recently, I discovered a blog that someone made which has the entire Diary of Kito Aya (One Litre Of Tears) or most of it anyways, translated into English.
Note – I’ve seen the drama already and I cried so much my eyes were swollen for 36 hours afterwards. I’ve NEVER cried that hard before. I was literally sobbing out of control. I still remember it was so severe that it’s like indescribable. And whenever I thought about it again (after I finished watching it), I cried again. This kept on for like about 3 weeks or something (?). The drama like totally MATURED me. It turned me to a much better person I think. I started to respect and show respect to my parents (not that i didn't but it just went to another level)and started to respect everything else around me (not that i didn't before.. just got more intense). It showed the world to me from a different perspective (mygawd.. I’m tearing up again).
So for those who haven’t watch it, I’m not kidding. WATCH IT. It is something that CANNOT be missed. It’s those things that are so DAMN PRICELESSLY PRECIOUS. It’s not just another “drama”. It’s the value of life. It may sound corny now but seriously watch it. It starts out gay and happy and corny and cheesy but as you keep watching, your heart will start bleeding…
So it just made me think again, “Wow… there is so much in life that we don’t even notice.” God gave us so much. So much. Too much. After reading Angels and Demons (by Dan Brown, who also wrote the Da Vinchi Code), I just think that we’ve all been so bad, and God continues to forgive us and it’s like, sierously ! we DON’T deserve it. Like I feel so guilty about it that I just want Him to stop… if there was a way to repent and pay Him back, I’d take the offer anytime. Even if it means giving my life. (and I think I actually mean that… hmm… maybe.. ^^;) Love you, God.
Back to One Litre of Tears vs Myself :
I should like keep a diary. Or at least treat this blog as a diary y’knoe… but OMGOSH. I HATE like writing stuff that already happened. Maybe that’s not really the point. Like, not to brag or anything, I think fast (well, not “fast”, more like “ahead of myself”) and my hands (when I type) can’t keep up. Like I’d just stop typing and keep thinking on. So when I have to go back and type it out, it’s like UGH ! I hafta RE-THINK that and sometimes I don’t really remember everything (cuz my brain is crappy like that…) and I’m the type of person that is SIMPLE. I get RIGHT TO THE POINT in the EASIEST and CLOSEST way possible. I’m lazy. Period. LMFAO XD so when I have to do things like REPEATS and RE-DOs of like ANYTHING, it just TOTALLY LIKE PISSES ME OFF !! lmfao… but I think I’m gonna do my best and try.
My past excuse was that I felt like I have nothing “important” or “interesting” to write about. But after being reminded of Aya’s perspective recently, and seeing the world as how she see it and how we SHOULD see it, I realize there are a lot of things to write about : ) but I’m just too lazy.
I don’t like being seen as a person who thinks I’m the only one right, so I DO admit that compared to a person like Aya, I suck SOO MUCH. I’m disgustingly horrible. A MONSTER compared to her. (I’m not emo, I DO have some self-worth.) I KNOE I’m not gonna be able to keep this diary thing going up but I WILL try my best. (That vow will probably die off after a while and I’ll return to my former self.) but I WILL try my best. Push myself. And like wat Aya said, ORDER myself to do these things. Until one day hopefully, I will get rid of my “lazyness” and gain some INITIATIVE and start putting 100% in EVERYTHING I do. I don’t wanna lie anymore (and THAT is a story for another time… =.= I shall explain some other day… I’m such a horrible person LMFAO ^^;) and really WORK HARD and stop slacking dammit.
I’m smart but not a genius. So to gain the level of a SLACKING genius, I still need to work hard. I don’t try and I get 80’s (I’m referring to school…) if I actually TRY, I get like NEAR 100’s. and so instinct taught me to slack… -__-‘ I wanna get rid of my horrible self and find my REAL self and let it out (I’ll explain some other time…) and grow and evolve into a person at least HALF as good as Aya (maybe ¾ LOL I’m greedy like that ^^; something else I needa work on… *sigh…*). Hopefully, I’ll become a better person one day.
Something always crosses my mind when I think about that “evolving”. The principal I had when I was in my private school, (MR.엣으[S]) said that the person you are now is the person you will be when you grow up. At the time I was in like grade 5 or something so his point was just that become a good person, and you will be that person for the rest of your life. And now that I’m older, obviously he’s suggesting the fact that I can no longer change myself. And that kinda scares me (makes me worried, to be specific…) so I wonder if I’ll “evolve” or not. Oh well, like I said, I’ll try my best -_- 훼이팅!!! (I think that’s how it’s spelled LOL…)
Moving (back) on to One Litre of Tears & Aya :
I like how the “story” is like … I don’t know how to say it… like very easy to relate to kinda thing… I like how everything is downright realistic and I think that’s what made me cry SO HARD. Because I was able to put myself into her shoes and was totally able to connect to her. I also like how Aya wasn’t displayed as the God-like PERFECT being, y’knoe wat I mean… Like she was making mistakes (not huge ones compared to mine LMFAO XD) and she was also suffering. Like it’s like how in the Bible, it says how Jesus suffered this and that, but it doesn’t like actually mentioned he felt pain, confusions BLAH BLAH BLAH to make it easier to connect and understand (NOT that I mean God is wrong, *looks at cross* no, dear Jesus, you are always right) LMFAO. Like for Aya it’s more realistic and you understand that she’s very positive person, but even someone like her is struggling and being tormented by her “difficulties”. I think that’s a really big and important thing. I love her for that. Aya is like an ANGEL to me. Sent straight from Heaven. I say “Angel” cuz she’s just so positive. If it were me I would’ve totally sunken straight to depression and started bitchin at everything. It just really makes me THINK, y’knoe… Think about how she sees the sky, her mom, her familiy, walking, being able to go and look around at a bookstore, to do homework, it’s just MYGAWD I am blessed. I think I’m gonna cry again.
I just noticed how everytime I’m gonna cry I hold it back. Like I’m trying to bury something. I think it’s good to let it out once in a while. And take the time to just think about everything around you. It like relieves stress in a really weird way O__O and just like “open your eyes”… I don’t knoe… you feel “lighter” afterwards and start to smile again. It just feels like STRETCH, smile, sigh, look out the window, and murmur thank you about everything. ya… ^^;
GOSH. I’m soo sentimental. Is this wat you call being “romantic” I don’t knoe… LOL I have a lot of perspective. I see things from a lot of perspective and think deep about many things people usually wont even glance at. I think it’s a good thing in a way ^-^ (feels proud) *sigh..* life is good huh ?
*looks at cross* yup, life is good XP
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Note – I’ve seen the drama already and I cried so much my eyes were swollen for 36 hours afterwards. I’ve NEVER cried that hard before. I was literally sobbing out of control. I still remember it was so severe that it’s like indescribable. And whenever I thought about it again (after I finished watching it), I cried again. This kept on for like about 3 weeks or something (?). The drama like totally MATURED me. It turned me to a much better person I think. I started to respect and show respect to my parents (not that i didn't but it just went to another level)and started to respect everything else around me (not that i didn't before.. just got more intense). It showed the world to me from a different perspective (mygawd.. I’m tearing up again).
So for those who haven’t watch it, I’m not kidding. WATCH IT. It is something that CANNOT be missed. It’s those things that are so DAMN PRICELESSLY PRECIOUS. It’s not just another “drama”. It’s the value of life. It may sound corny now but seriously watch it. It starts out gay and happy and corny and cheesy but as you keep watching, your heart will start bleeding…
So it just made me think again, “Wow… there is so much in life that we don’t even notice.” God gave us so much. So much. Too much. After reading Angels and Demons (by Dan Brown, who also wrote the Da Vinchi Code), I just think that we’ve all been so bad, and God continues to forgive us and it’s like, sierously ! we DON’T deserve it. Like I feel so guilty about it that I just want Him to stop… if there was a way to repent and pay Him back, I’d take the offer anytime. Even if it means giving my life. (and I think I actually mean that… hmm… maybe.. ^^;) Love you, God.
Back to One Litre of Tears vs Myself :
I should like keep a diary. Or at least treat this blog as a diary y’knoe… but OMGOSH. I HATE like writing stuff that already happened. Maybe that’s not really the point. Like, not to brag or anything, I think fast (well, not “fast”, more like “ahead of myself”) and my hands (when I type) can’t keep up. Like I’d just stop typing and keep thinking on. So when I have to go back and type it out, it’s like UGH ! I hafta RE-THINK that and sometimes I don’t really remember everything (cuz my brain is crappy like that…) and I’m the type of person that is SIMPLE. I get RIGHT TO THE POINT in the EASIEST and CLOSEST way possible. I’m lazy. Period. LMFAO XD so when I have to do things like REPEATS and RE-DOs of like ANYTHING, it just TOTALLY LIKE PISSES ME OFF !! lmfao… but I think I’m gonna do my best and try.
My past excuse was that I felt like I have nothing “important” or “interesting” to write about. But after being reminded of Aya’s perspective recently, and seeing the world as how she see it and how we SHOULD see it, I realize there are a lot of things to write about : ) but I’m just too lazy.
I don’t like being seen as a person who thinks I’m the only one right, so I DO admit that compared to a person like Aya, I suck SOO MUCH. I’m disgustingly horrible. A MONSTER compared to her. (I’m not emo, I DO have some self-worth.) I KNOE I’m not gonna be able to keep this diary thing going up but I WILL try my best. (That vow will probably die off after a while and I’ll return to my former self.) but I WILL try my best. Push myself. And like wat Aya said, ORDER myself to do these things. Until one day hopefully, I will get rid of my “lazyness” and gain some INITIATIVE and start putting 100% in EVERYTHING I do. I don’t wanna lie anymore (and THAT is a story for another time… =.= I shall explain some other day… I’m such a horrible person LMFAO ^^;) and really WORK HARD and stop slacking dammit.
I’m smart but not a genius. So to gain the level of a SLACKING genius, I still need to work hard. I don’t try and I get 80’s (I’m referring to school…) if I actually TRY, I get like NEAR 100’s. and so instinct taught me to slack… -__-‘ I wanna get rid of my horrible self and find my REAL self and let it out (I’ll explain some other time…) and grow and evolve into a person at least HALF as good as Aya (maybe ¾ LOL I’m greedy like that ^^; something else I needa work on… *sigh…*). Hopefully, I’ll become a better person one day.
Something always crosses my mind when I think about that “evolving”. The principal I had when I was in my private school, (MR.엣으[S]) said that the person you are now is the person you will be when you grow up. At the time I was in like grade 5 or something so his point was just that become a good person, and you will be that person for the rest of your life. And now that I’m older, obviously he’s suggesting the fact that I can no longer change myself. And that kinda scares me (makes me worried, to be specific…) so I wonder if I’ll “evolve” or not. Oh well, like I said, I’ll try my best -_- 훼이팅!!! (I think that’s how it’s spelled LOL…)
Moving (back) on to One Litre of Tears & Aya :
I like how the “story” is like … I don’t know how to say it… like very easy to relate to kinda thing… I like how everything is downright realistic and I think that’s what made me cry SO HARD. Because I was able to put myself into her shoes and was totally able to connect to her. I also like how Aya wasn’t displayed as the God-like PERFECT being, y’knoe wat I mean… Like she was making mistakes (not huge ones compared to mine LMFAO XD) and she was also suffering. Like it’s like how in the Bible, it says how Jesus suffered this and that, but it doesn’t like actually mentioned he felt pain, confusions BLAH BLAH BLAH to make it easier to connect and understand (NOT that I mean God is wrong, *looks at cross* no, dear Jesus, you are always right) LMFAO. Like for Aya it’s more realistic and you understand that she’s very positive person, but even someone like her is struggling and being tormented by her “difficulties”. I think that’s a really big and important thing. I love her for that. Aya is like an ANGEL to me. Sent straight from Heaven. I say “Angel” cuz she’s just so positive. If it were me I would’ve totally sunken straight to depression and started bitchin at everything. It just really makes me THINK, y’knoe… Think about how she sees the sky, her mom, her familiy, walking, being able to go and look around at a bookstore, to do homework, it’s just MYGAWD I am blessed. I think I’m gonna cry again.
I just noticed how everytime I’m gonna cry I hold it back. Like I’m trying to bury something. I think it’s good to let it out once in a while. And take the time to just think about everything around you. It like relieves stress in a really weird way O__O and just like “open your eyes”… I don’t knoe… you feel “lighter” afterwards and start to smile again. It just feels like STRETCH, smile, sigh, look out the window, and murmur thank you about everything. ya… ^^;
GOSH. I’m soo sentimental. Is this wat you call being “romantic” I don’t knoe… LOL I have a lot of perspective. I see things from a lot of perspective and think deep about many things people usually wont even glance at. I think it’s a good thing in a way ^-^ (feels proud) *sigh..* life is good huh ?
*looks at cross* yup, life is good XP
Edit ~ !
I’m very religious. Has anyone else noticed that ? lmfao XD
Crap this was long haha ^^;
Anyone who read thru that *suddenly embarrassed* you all deserve a round of applause haha XD
Crap this was long haha ^^;
Anyone who read thru that *suddenly embarrassed* you all deserve a round of applause haha XD
